Saturday, September 18, 2010

life's blessings!

sooooo, it's saturday. the boy is
working
again.
i am thankful he has a good job and i am thankful that he is able to work hard.
the
money
is
great.
but
i
am
sad.

i feel like a single person. i feel like i am doing things like i did when i was a single girl.
i
have
cried
a
lot
in
the
past
month.
but the past week, even more.
i feel like i am
being tested.
i know god does not judge, nor 'test'....but
i
feel
like i am.

soooo, last week, i rejoined weight watchers....yes. i. did.
let me give you a little background and then u will
see where i am going with
this whole story.
(remember, i go off on my tangients...)...sometimes it takes a while to get to the original story.
k, background. weight watchers...FOCUS!
i joined WW over 2 yrs ago. i was feeling that i needed to lose a few LBS. not a lot.
but i felt like no matter how far i ran or what i ate, i just could not shake it.
so one morning.....(a saturday morning. at 7freaking30), i got in my car and
went
to
my
first
meeting.
i felt good because i took that step....but i also felt 'weird'.....i was definitely one of the
youngest...but i was also one of the thinnest....
and here i am going to a meeting for excuse me, fat people....(at least that's what i thought)....
i felt like
people looked at me and were like, 'why is she here'....
but
i
instantly (well, ok, not instantly...but shortly after)
realized
these
meetings
are
for
EVERYONE!
our leader is crazy, full of energy. she is an inspiration and helps keep us on that path of 'right / healthy
food
choices.
ok....now fastforward 2 yrs.....yes. i fell off the wagon. thru some stressful times in my life
i gained about 12 lbs back.
yikes.
not
a
good
feeling...
sooooo, last week, i took that step....again.
i went back to my
WW meetings!
i didnt realize how much they really do keep you on track! but what i realized is that i missed them.
i missed hearing all the positive stories.
i missed seeing the transformations that people made and are making.
AND
guess what???
the
BEST
part???
i
lost
FIVE
POUNDS.
happy dancing taking place. i am so thrilled. i am 'relearning' how to make the right
food choices...
AND
what a 'true' portion size really is. ahem....(it's not a HUGE bowl of pasta like one would think....)
try like
one
cup.
one
teeny
tiny
eensy
weensy
cup.
but you know what???
it's so easy to follow the WW way....
and the best part???
it
really
WORKS.
soooo back to my original beginning of this blog post.
today, i got up and went to my meeting.
i have had a horrible week. (please refer back to single life in first few sentences)
but
today
was
another
slap in
my
BIG
FAT *(well almost skinny....lol...)*
FACE.
our leader talked about negativity and making choices. she talked about a 'mean' person
who was not nice to her at work, and what she did about it.
AND you know what?
she felt better.
and then she
delivered these words:
GOD works in mysterious ways. she said she truly believes that EVERYTHING happens
for a reason.
bad things happen to good people, for reasons we are not supposed to know.
but basically she went on to say...
be thankful for what you have. live YOUR dreams....
because someone out there always has something worse.

with everything i have been dealing with this past week / month, with my sister's
new cancer diagnosis, and other various life issues....
i feel
like
this was
just another
slap in my FACE.

life is precious. we need to appreciate....and learn to give thanks for the things we have at the current
moment!

the signs that i pray for are right there in front of me.....

soooo i plug along and try to stop and smell the flowers! sometimes its rough....

have a peek at my cake pops. i showcased them a few days ago but for
those of you who have never made.....
you
are
missing
out
on
a
truly
little piece of heaven.
in
YOUR
MOUTH!
seriously.
thanks to bakerella!

i want her to come to my kitchen and just hang out. chat. teach. learn. grow.
she is amazing.

sooooo, here was the start of two days of cake pops!

bakerellas infamous cake pops!

one box cake mix (made in a 9x13 cake pan, per box instructions)
one container frosting. (see pics below)
lollipop sticks
chocolate discs for melting
sprinkles
plastic bags
ribbon
styrofoam block (important.....i tried it one time with out this...OYE! that's all i can say) :o)

bake cake.
cut cake into pieces and place in large mixing bowl...i use my ever so loved kitchen aid!
add about 3/4 container frosting. (room temperature)
mix until soft gooey dough forms.
form into balls.
FREEZE. i dont have a lot of patience so this was the hardest part.
melt chocolate.
dip in chocolate and sprinkles.
cool.
place in bags. tie with ribbon. give as gifts. be prepared for lots of mmmmmm'ing and awwwww'ing.
and LOTS of questions: "how do you make those"...."are they hard".......and the best: "you're so creative".....
BUT i would not be creative without the help of BAKERELLA! see note above. xo

and for the good stuff:


chocolate......


lollipop sticks!


i think the
whipped
buttercream
is
the
BEST!


balls. lots o balls......


please take note of styrofoam block




all tied up with pretty green and gold bows.......


 all boxed up...in a fancy schmancy bakery box....ready to
be
devoured
by
40
soccer lovin girls!
yellow~chocolate pops.
colored sprinkles~yellow butter cake pops.

either way....
it's lovin
on
your
tongue
and in
your
BELLY!

alrighty, snickerdoodle pumpkin muffin cupcake faces.......
i am
off
to enjoy
one of probably
our
last
80'
sunny
summer, i mean almost FALL
DAYS.....

i hope you do the same....

xoxoxo


6 comments:

Alex said...

i love making cake pops!! I haven't made them in a while. I made them the other day and couldn't get the melting chocolate thin enough to dunk...how long did you microwave those suckers?!

Tammy@ Not Just Paper and Glue said...

I totally understand the WW thing. When I was younger I was very thin but I always watched my weight and even if I gained 5 lbs I
quickly try to lose it. Through life's circumstances, I am now almost double the size I was then!!! How it happened I do not really know but one of things is my age now - it is working against me. Don't feel intimidated when you go to your meetings - you are taking care of yourself now so you won't have to when you are older.
I am sorry life is being a little rough with you right now. Seems it is for a lot of us these days. I hope your rough waters begin to smooth out some.

Elizabeth said...

Your post promted 2 responses from me...the first - well I've been thinking about digging out my WW materials and working on it at home. I really connected when I was going and I actually lost 30 lbs after my daughter's birth. I don't have much to loose this time - just summer fun weight {that's what I'm calling it} oh...and bakign weight. *sigh* I think I will get it out tonight and reread it and start to get back on the wagon. The second thing your post prompted...my need for cake pops. I have all of the ingredients sitting and waiting {read: screaming my name!} for me...ugh, I'm my own worse enemy! Good luck on WW...I'll be checking in on ya {maybe you can send me soem motivation!}

Nichole said...

You had lots of thoughts in this post that I could relate to... a hubby that works a lot, always dieting, family with health issues, forgetting to remember we are blessed! :)
I enjoy your thoughts so I gave you a blog award on my page.
~Love & God Bless your sister

Young Wife said...

When DH works overtime I get kind of down. I have heard so many wonderful things about Weight Watchers. Glad you're eating right!

Birdie said...

I'm glad she lifted you up by telling you something you needed to hear, but I'm sorry the past month has been so rough on you. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, even if we never realize why or how. Sometimes our situation doesn't change, just the way we view it.